Another day in paradise

Dropped out of Kaplan, going to transfer to a local school. I'm feeling really down at the moment. Four years ago I was excited to leave the toxic environment of Florida and to move back to my favorite state Texas. Everything has gone down hill since I moved here. I lost my first dog, Rambo. I was involuntary checked in to the most depressing hospital. My grandfather passed away a few months after when I got out. I lost my job. Had to move back home, in a not so healthy environment. We had to put a dog down. Still unemployed. Weight isn't going anywhere. Have several health issues, but no insurance to check them out. My grandma passed 6 months ago. My dad is very sick. My ma is very depressed and my little sister is still in Florida.

It hasn't been horrible the entire time. My parents got me a mini shnauzer 2 years ago. But he is no longer mine. He has been living in a house with a backyard and two other dogs, it'd be cruel to take him away. After a four year dry spell I finally found someone I would like to have a relationship with. Unfortunately, that ended a few hours Ago. May have not hit me yet, but it was the right thing to do to end it. It was a short relationship, not even three months. Which I've been told in a lesbian relationship it is a long time. But a serious relationship includes family being involved. And we weren't there yet. Which I find very sad but also kept me at bay instead of falling head over heels. Family is the most important thing to me.

I am a difficult person to handle. And I should know by now that very few people can deal with me. Have a thick skin and not take anything personal. I need that. I need to not make sure whoever I am with is okay and don't have their feelings hurt 24/7. It gets exhausting. I need a break.