Christmas to everyone, but..

Christmas comes and Christmas goes. The excitement of waking up early and running down stairs to see if Santa came by is gone. Completely! Make me wish I Could live my live back in the day.

I am working, i know i know!!, Finally!The part time job is at Ethan Allen, only for the weekends, And a temp position working with my ex girlfriend. It def has its up and downs. Ups, as I am close  to her and i can see her face and see her smile. A possible up would have been to sneak away for a minute or two to have a passionate kiss. But she wasnt comfortable with that. The bad part was whenever she was having a bad day with whatever she is doing, the heat of it would fall on me. So there is a lil more bickering. But I miss her. Its sad, that neither one of us want the relationship but when we are together, it just fits, it just works you know? But i am moving on. Not to where I am actively looking for dates, but wouldn't be close minded to it. I am really going to be doing this blog thing. so im beat, see ya tomorrow! or who ever actually follows. Would love to hear for you or anybody about anything! =)

Its a start

I just completed my first two days work in a two year time frame. Got to say, it feels pretty great. I mean I am doing the most boring thing possible but at least they allow me to read during the down time. Which will come in handy when school starts.

I can actally see myself on my feet and living my life in the near future. I havent been able to do so in years. This is an awakening for me. I am doing this, I am getting out of my house and in to my own place. I am going to be a grown 25 year old. Oh yea!

My girlfriend and I are still split. I will say how ever I do miss her and wish things went down differently. But she is now in a place where she is confused and not sure of me. It just plain out sucks. But the thing that I don't like is that as everyday that goes by, I find myself moving on a little bit. And everything starts to get easier and easier. The funny part is when ever I get a text from her or see a picture, I am back at square one. It may be may be possible that I am becoming a fb stalker on my ex's page. HA! Things are looking up though, I am excited